Awen Inspired Rock Ballad

All I want for me is some love and compassion

You can find the same here but I don’t wanna ration

it

The love can be platonic, yet you’ll almost find it passionate

Intense and loyal loving can be anyway you fashion it

Inspiration takes a hold,

And I become bold,

Enough to write the words

To the song I barely heard

All I want for me is some love and compassion

You can find the same here but I don’t wanna ration

it

The love can be platonic, yet you’ll almost find it passionate

Intense and loyal loving can be anyway you fashion it

I heard your voice……..

on a breeze……

And it took the whole

of me

All I want for me is some love and compassion

You can find the same here but I don’t wanna ration

it

The love can be platonic, yet you’ll almost find it passionate

Intense and loyal loving can be anyway you fashion it

I can only be

who I am

So love me or don’t

I don’t give a DAMN


All I want for me is some love and compassion

You can find the same here but I don’t wanna ration

it

The love can be platonic, yet you’ll almost find it passionate

Intense and loyal loving can be anyway you fashion it

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Beltane

Tonight is Beltane eve and tomorrow is Beltane/May day and it’s the first time in my official Pagan status that I have been without a partner, though not the first time that I have been unable to indulge in frisky shenanigans. This frustrates me, because I am a sensual being, the Taurean in me loves to love and even if that love is unrequited I give it freely. Now, before you think the worst of me, that doesn’t mean in a 60s wild child way, though I do love to get physical with the men I find attractive, I’m not a complete trollop. Because in my croneship I have never felt the maiden leave me. Yet, despite having birthed two children, I have never really connected with my mother aspect, or even got a proper grip on being an adult.

I have realised that my childishness infuriates people, my wonder at the tiny miracles that life offers seems to cause irritation to those I love, my overexcitement irritates, my desires anger and embarrass. This has led me to lose so many important people in my life. It has also taught me that I need to offer the same love and acceptance to myself as I do to others. But knowing that doesn’t mean that I can do it. Though a bit of self love this evening will be a thing 😉

Life in black and white

I tried a million times to write

Of what has been and how I might

Move forward into sweet contentment

Leave far behind bitter resentment

I don’t think I will have the strength

To keep this up, the final length

Is always further than it seems

My tortured mind, it’s silent screams

There is no respite e’en in dreams

Where past, and present mingle in

So many follies and guilt of sin

Yet I still cannot separate

Truth from falsehood, do I wait?

Or touch the skin with blades of steel

The only thing sometimes I feel

The desperation overwhelms

My lord Manannan at the helms

Of ships that steer my heart and mind

Until in nature calm I find

My lady Epona comes up close

Riding on a grey white horse

Surrounding me with love until

My tears run dry and all is still

Gratitude for their support

Yet sadness for no-one to court

This mortal on this earthly plain

The loneliness rises again

And it can wrench my heart some more

The veil seems thin, I see a door

That leads to where I want to be

With ancestors and lovers see?

Time alone can give an answer

To this lonely night owl dancer

I dance to music only for me

Solitude must be the key

I cannot let the sheeple win

Hark! The voices. What a din

I will not listen, or obey

The messages they try to say

I’m worthless and not needed here

And I can’t do it for my fear

But they don’t know how strong my heart

My love for my descendants part

Of all the reasons why I stay

And live to fight another day